God Comes Through Every Single Time –Part 5

Things have gotten better since that day. Am I still at my Dad’s…Yes yes I am but I feel good about it now…LOL That is the difference. I am excited about what’s coming my way now.

Why am I writing this all now instead of after my desires have all shown up in the physical forms I want them too, because I am on my journey just like YOU!!!

The difference now for me is I am really really enjoying my journey…I love how the energy moves through me. I love knowing that I have control over how I feel. I love that I don’t need conditions to change in order for me to feel good. I love feeling good. The fact is it’s no longer an Action Journey only for me. It’s an emotional journey first and always and from me first making me feeling good a priority, the most important thing to me, my journey and my actions are inspired. The ideas that I now find I have access to are amazing to me.

The fact is, that if I make everything, everything an emotional journey first, play the games that lift up my thoughts and vibrations, the Universe/God/Source/All that is is responding to those and gives me corresponding experiences, things, conditions and situations that are a match to that song I am singing, feeling delicious about. Can I sing today a better tone, a better vibration, a better song than yesterday? Absolutely. Can I trust that God hears me, my tone, and my song and responds accordingly with a match. Most definitely that has always been so…just didn’t know it…or I forgot…but now I am making it a deliberate concsious thought to feel what I am thinking about more often.

Does it take practice? You bet it does. Is it worth it? Hell Yes!!!! Am I willing to try? Always. What have I got to lose? Nothing except not feeling good. My thing is if I can feel better or good than I did before that thing happened, or before I thought that thought….well now that’s worth a million gazillion dollars to me.

What else I also started to notice was that I could even Pretend to feel good even when I wasn’t….ha ha ha and then start to feel good….that’s how powerful I have allowed myself to become in my own reality. Then I noticed without me having to struggle or make things happen the things I’ve been wanting to happen are starting to happen…some have already happened…some are still becoming…conditions and situations are changing.

But here lies the Rub. I no longer NEED any of them to change to feel good. And yet because I feel good they change none the less.

So do I stand here and say that I have everything I’ve ever wanted and now from this vantage point of having accomplished all of my goals am I going to tell you how to get yours?? NOPE I am standing right here in my own physical shoes, living at my Dad’s home…knowing that I am indeed a vibrational being, knowing that I am also non-physical energy….knowing that I can and always do have access to better feeling thoughts…and by doing so I have access to this huge vibrational escrow with everything I desire in it. And knowing that I don’t owe anyone anything except for me to be connected and aligned with God/Source and when I do everyone around me benefits and the whole Universe Expands. And knowing when I move towards feeling good I am allowing it all to flow in, and that I’ve got the valve open. When I’ve got the valve open Source/God/Life Force is flowing through me and all kinds of delicious desires start to flow into my experience, things that are important to me, my preferences.

So to me, if you want your life to start going in a direction you like and are wanting…you might take Abrahams advice…or some other teacher that resonates with you. …For me Abraham and two other teachers I love Orin and Daben was/is clear…and now I have access to my own guides….Take the emotional journey first, however that feels best to you and you will see and feel how powerful you really are.

You won’t know unless you Go!!!

You too will feel God/Source flowing through you. Then you too will have access to what you never before allowed yourself to have access to. Your work, My work, her work, his work, their work is to ALLOW and Let God/Source handle the rest…Allow? Yup! Find something to feel good or better about and stay there…Let God/Source handle the rest. And you know what?

God comes through every single time.

Peace and Light
Sydney Chase…

God Comes Through Every Single Time Part 4

Feeling the Fear and doing it anyway…going to motivational seminars…reading books…meditating…Praying..Asking When was it going to be my turn God? What’s wrong with me? I am a good person. I give and help others. Oh the nights I cried and cried…the Days I cried.. How often I beat up on myself!!!! More often than not!!! Still pushing forward…still going towards my goals…still still moving…

Until One Day in Feb. of 2003 I had what the Doctors called an Episodic Event. My intestines exploded in my body cavity. You have got to be kidding me? I thought. What the Hell? Just when I finally started getting my business back up and running, though a little wobbly, but up….Now? Now I am going down for the count?…SHIT!!!! This cannot be happening to ME…not me this GOOD person. I don’t deserve this shit. WELL Folks needless to say it did!!!

My intestines exploded in my body cavity. I had so much poison in my system that it moved up to my lungs and was on it’s way towards my heart. Blood system contaminated…part of my intestines went gangrened and had to be removed, my bowels were surgically detached. And I had a bag attached to the outside of my body. And it didn’t look like I was going to survive this. I was unconscious for days. I had a near death experience during all of this trauma and when I finally became conscious I was extremely pissed. Pissed for days. Woke up knowing everything about everything then forgot it all or felt like I did.

Months of recuperation laid ahead of me and more surgery more hospital stays. 8 months of not working on much of anything and almost 1 year of not earning any money. Evicted again. Me and my sons back at my good friends home in January of 04…Started working again…two full time jobs…back to back…but still could not seem to move out of her place into a place of my own. Slept on her couch again…ARGH….Why God? I am working my ass off…I am a good person.
What the Hell? This cannot be happening!!!!!

While in a meditation one day…I heard clearly…If you keep doing what you are doing you will keep getting what you got!!! and then silence for two weeks. No more answers to my questions…Pissed again…that’s it? That’s the answer to my questions?…I am working really hard God…really hard here…and that’s all the advice you got to give to me? What more can I be doing? Shit! One day I saw the film Ground Hog day with Bill Murray and realized that was me…that was my life….LOL Damn.

So I started to see if I could see things differently. I started to do things I liked. Things started to change…I decided in April 05 that I was going to be an Actress…I had always dreamed of being one and well damn it why not me. Things started to change. Action was taken but still the FEAR was running in the background and I just didn’t know how to get rid of it. I was facing my fears but more would pop up…ARGH!!!! Unworthiness started to show itself too…Damn!!! Where the hell was all this stuff coming from? I felt good about some things but some stuff I felt really really bad about. Then my friend asked me to leave her place in Oct of 05…Well here we go again. Damn!!!

This was getting ridiculous!! My youngest son and I moved in with my Dad…my oldest son had by now gotten his own place…My youngest son stayed for as long as he could then went to live with his Dad…By now all of my possessions that had been in storage…everything in November of 05 had been sold in an Auction!!!…

and one December 11, 2005 while I was journaling I asked God these questions:

What would you do to create the life that I see as me? How would you go about living as me? What would you be thinking? How would you be creating? How would you go about having life and having it more abundantly? How ould you create the love of your life, the money to do those things you would enjoy doing as me? How would you create a perfect and healthy body as me? How would you create the most loving relationships as me?, knowing that most times I believe what appears in my world…how would you go about creating these desires you planted inside of me? How would you allow you in and give you room to move in my life?

The Answer came for me On December 19th, 05 I found out about a book called Ask and it is Given and Abraham. On December 22, 05 I had the book in my hand..and I started to do some of the Processes in it and haven’t stopped re-reading it over and over again, because every time I read it or listen to their CD’s I read or hear something I swear was not there before. Each time I am at a different vibrational range than I had been, so I hear and read and receive different things now.

On May 21, 2006 I had a sit down with Abraham at a workshop in TarryTown NY. Who is Abraham? Visit this site and read and listen to the download www.abraham-hicks.com. They read me like an open book. They read my vibrations. If you want to see what they said to meCLICK HERE scroll down to Jan 11, 2007, Stand if you think it’s You to read that. It may be of some value to you, it may not, but they knew exactly where I was and what I wanted to know without me using all of the right words to convey what I was meaning. They, Abraham reminded me of who I was, who I am and who I am becoming. The rest was, is up to me.

God Comes Through Every Single Time Part 3

I wondered if I focused my attention on those thoughts that made me feel better for as long as I still feel good doing so, if I can find even better feeling thoughts while I am still in this situation or condition? I started to make little games of it for myself. The more I played the games of finding the better feeling thought the more the games became interesting to me. I began to notice that I didn’t really need the condition to change in order for me to feel better. I didn’t necessarily feel better about the condition or the situation but I did feel better. Then I wondered if it is possible for me to feel better and better even though the condition hasn’t changed? What if the condition never changes? Can I still feel good? Do I need better conditions to feel better? So I began to notice that I didn’t, that I could literally find all kinds of ways for me to feel better. Wow!!! This was really interesting to me because I noticed that I did not need conditions to change in order for me to find just better feeling thoughts period.

Hey, Christmas is my Crack of Least Resistance. Hey, I found my crack of least resistance that Abraham was telling me about. There is absolutely no resistance in me when I think about Holiday times. Then I began to look for other cracks of least resistance. Then the journey began to get more interesting and more fun for me. Fun in a way that wasn’t all harps and roses, fun in a way that an explorer going on a dig finds a fragment of let’s say the Egyptian Pyramids. He hasn’t found the whole kingdom yet but found something that suprs him on to explore further.

One day I pondered, hey maybe I really can clean up my vibrations all together and get them all going in sort of one direction and you know what? As thoughts that I didn’t like or expereinces and conditions presented themselves that I still didn’t feel good about, there were some that did. I used the ones, the new ones as cracks of least resistance and milked them, sucked as much good feelings out of them as I could. (Still do that today, but the old thoughts the icky ones are becoming less and less) More new ideas, more new inspirations, new people, new thoughts started to pop up, more access to better feeling thoughts about certain conditions, situations and experiences in my life. Boy oh boy I am on to something here. I used those ideas, new thoughts, new inspirations to spur me even further. Most of the time they were different thoughts about old familiar ones. Now that may not seem like light bulb moments or new thoughts to someone else, but they felt like breaths of fresh air to me.

It’s like someone who buys a new car. Let’s say its your friend, they call you up and tell you they just bought a brand new car. They invite you, their good friend, to come over and take a look at it, or they drive it over to you. You can hear the excitement in their voice about their brand new car. Finally they arrive. Really the car is not brand new at all. It’s a used car, 10 years old, in need of a paint job…blah blah blah.

You are thinking to yourself…What the Hell? That’s not a brand new car and before you can censor yourself the words slip out…And your friend still in their glee says well it may not be brand new to you…but it feels brand new to me. Yesterday I was walking, bumming rides, riding the bus, but today I am driving myself around….Woooohoooo I feel good!!!!

That’s kind of the way these new thoughts about old conditions felt for me. So what feels good to me obviously has a whole different range of vibrations from what feels good to you when you are thinking thoughts. Your friend, the one who got the car, may now have a whole new range of different outlooks and thoughts to view their life from Now. A whole different range and a whole different perspective they never had access to before because they are allowing themselves to.

Take me for example Sydney Chase. I have been evicted out of where I’ve lived many times. Money and not having enough of it was always a big issue for me. Argh… Never owned a home in my life. As I found myself losing many of my material possessions, I felt less and less worthy. Less and less…but really Truth be told, what I had been doing most of my life was putting a happy face sticker on mostly everything. My feelings, my experiences, my thoughts…

I was always afraid of not being able to provide for my family…always struggling to make a dollar out of fifteen cents…LOL….we’ve lived in so many places it would make your head spin.

In 2001 I was evicted out of my apartment with my two sons…finally after years of being afraid of that happening it did. Had to put all my stuff in storage. We went to live with a good friend. I continued to try and maintain my business. Lost it my business the same year I had just received an award from the city of New York for being an up and coming African-American business. My business was at that time, one block away from the WTC…..Okay I can stand strong here…I thought…For another year I struggled to get back on my feet…I mean struggled. Found an apartment for me and my sons to live in in Jan 2002. But can I tell you that the background noise in my life was still fear and powerlessness and unworthiness…How long could I keep this apartment without us being homeless AGAIN? How was I going to get this business really rolling again? How was I going to keep my kids fed taken care of…yada yada yada OMG the FEAR was Massive right along there with guilt, doubt, lack, unworthiness, powerlessness, depression, blame, frustration and more…What a Mix!!. And yet if you looked at me I was always seeming to be happy go lucky. I was putting a BIG old happy FACE sticker on EVERYTHING!!!…I didn’t know I was doing that…but I kept telling myself that things would work out…I didn’t know how but it would. Yet I was always always thinking about how to stop it if it didn’t…I had been on a spiritual journey since 1995 but honestly I always felt behind the eight ball…And I was trying everything I could think of.

God Comes Through Every Single Time Part 2

So instead of looking at what I didn’t have that I wanted to have and instead of looking for the result of what I was doing, I began to look at how I was feeling about what I didn’t have. Ahhhh now that was pretty evident. I really didn’t FEEL GOOD about not having ABC or D. I didn’t FEEL GOOD about this or that relationship. I didn’t FEEL GOOD having this thing happen to me. So…hmmmm I started to ponder how if everything I do currently have and am experiencing is a match to my thoughts but not just my thoughts alone but a match to my thoughts and how I FEEL about those thoughts I am having while I am thinking them, then I would have to say…Yes yes the Universe is responding to my song. My reality is really a match to my thoughts and the feelings I am having about the those thoughts when I am thinking them. The Universe is responding to my real song which is I don’t have this thing and it does not FEEL GOOD not having this thing. Hmmmm….My vibrational tone is really truly one of not Feeling very Good about alot of subjects that are important to me. The Universe is responding in kind and giving me more of what I am not feeling good about or liking.

So now my question became, How can I feel good about my thoughts of things I want but don’t have yet? I began to look at my life and my experiences a little differently. Is it possible for me to feel differently about ABC & D right here, right now, even though I don’t have ABC and or D right now? Is it possible for me to feel better about where I am, right where I am now? What if I believed that ABC and or D was on it’s way, how would I feel if I knew that for sure? Hmmm, well I would feel a hell of alot better than I do now. Can I pretend, or make believe that it’s on it’s way? Sure I can.

As I began asking myself different questions about how I was truly feeling about certain thoughts when I was thinking about them I began to notice why certain things were unfolding the way that they were for me. Ahhhh I began to get what my vibrational tone was and how Source/The Universe/God was matching that. So I thought to myself well what if I changed the way I am singing my tone? What if I could change my vibrational tone? What if I could begin to change some thoughts and how I feel while I am thinking those thoughts, I wonder what I might be experiencing then?

So little by little I started to become more interested in my feelings about thoughts I had when I was thinking them. Some thoughts no matter how hard I tried were just the same old thoughts and no matter what I just didn’t have access to better feeling thoughts about them. Not working!!! Not working!!!.

Okay so let me see, I asked myself, are there some thoughts I do have access to that feel good? Thoughts that when I think them I feel good no matter what? I know that there are. I just have to figure out what they are. So I started to seek and find those thoughts. I made believe that I was an explorer on an expedition to find better feeling thoughts. And I did find something!!

I found something for me. It was the Holiday Season from Thanksgiving to Christmas and New Years. I absolutely love that holiday time. I don’t care if I ever had enough money for gifts and such, the Holiday time for me gave me such a good feeling when I thought about them. So whenever I caught myself thinking of something that didn’t feel good, I would immediately shift my thoughts to a Christmas time where I felt wonderful.

And you know what I noticed then? I would begin to feel better. I would have a smile on my face from the inside out. It didn’t matter to me where or when I would think about Christmas, nobody knew or knows I am thinking about that…but it feels good to me…only I am aware of it. And when I started to feel better, right there and then in that now moment I began to notice something else. I started to notice that I began to have access to other better feeling thoughts. Then I noticed something else, I could actually create or manufacture better feeling thoughts at my will. I could access better feeling thoughts….What? WoooooHoooo….I am doing that. I am making myself feel better.

So I wondered to myself if this is possible for me to be in this condition whatever it was in this moment that I didn’t like, and stand here in this condition that I don’t like and think about Christmas that I love and feel really really good, even though I am in this situation, I wonder if it’s possible for me to find some better feeling thoughts about this condition while I am right here feeling good about Christmas. Then it became really apparent to me that while I was standing in this condition that I didn’t like that I was actually FEELING GOOD, it was possible for me to find one or two better feeling thoughts about the condition or situation. Hmmmmmmmm…I realized that I never had access to those two better feeling thoughts about this condition before. And those thoughts do feel better than what I had been thinking about it previously. I may be on to something here. The condition or situation didn’t change, but I did. I changed my thought about it. Hey wait a minute I did that. So the condition did not change but I changed my thought about the condition just a little bit and I found some little bit of relief…I felt it…I felt a little bit better…that was a real feeling….

God Comes Through Every Single Time –Part 1

This is a re-post of something I wrote earlier this year…Since then alot has changed but I wanted to place it here as well. I will post things I’ve written before…

God Comes Through Every Single Time –Part 1

So here is something I am noticiing about me these days. I am not rushing to get anywhere any more. I am enjoying my journey, I mean really enjoying it. Sure Sure I’ve got quite a bit of desires percolating that have not come into physical form, quite a bit of them. The difference is I no longer feel bad that they haven’t manifested in physical form Yet. But there are alot of my desires that have really expanded into thought forms that are way beyond anything I ever allowed myself to think or ponder before. That is amazing. I mean they have really really grown into more…it’s interesting how much fuller they’ve become….Wow!!!

It’s wild to me…okay take for example my apartment…When I first started to use LOA deliberately and found out about what guidance my emotions were telling me…I was so beating the drum of what is, the reality I was currently living. All I wanted or thought I could have was all based on very small limited thoughts and feelings of fear and unworthiness. I had matched that perfectly. I figured well let me just think good thoughts about an apartment and think good thoughts about money and somehow things would change. I had very limited thoughts that is for sure. Oh I was thinking about a big beautiful apartment here in NYC which did make me feel good and I was thinking about having more money which also made me feel good but immediately after that I would look at where I was standing in my own physical shoes and well not feel good again. That was sort of making me nutz. Where was all my stuff I was thinking about? I cut out pictures, created vision boards…blah blah blah…but still nothing seemed to be changing for me. I was so beating the drum of what was, what is and I was beating mysef up too, telling myself that I wasn’t doing it right and comparing myself to this one or that one.

See I was mostly an Action oriented person…intellectually I just wanted to know what right Action to take. If the Universe could tell me what action to take maybe I could get this thing right and feel good in the process. So I approached the emotional journey as I approached just about everything in my life through action. When you approach everything through Action there really isn’t enough Action you can take to make a really big difference. Why? Because most of the majority of my actions taken were motivated actions based on FEAR. FEAR that if I don’t do XYZ now well then ABC is not going to happen…

If I don’t feel Joy right now well then I won’t have ABC or D and I want ABC and D to happen right now. Okay let me feel good period and then this thing I want to happen will happen. Okay let me pivot right now and change my thoughts towards what I want and think about it really hard. Again for a while there I was making myself nuts. I didn’t see any results and that’s what I wanted. RESULTS!! I wanted to prove the RESULTS more than I wanted to feel good.

I figured I was asking and I was praying and that was the thing. I was asking so much I wore myself out.

Here’s the thing I finally got and continue to get. I am always asking, every single moment of every single day I am alive and awake I am asking. Asking for what? A better life. Everytime I have an experience I don’t like or doesn’t feel good, I am asking for something I do like, do want to experience, do want to feel good about. Hmmmmm If I am always going to have a desire about something more, then maybe I might give some attention to what my vibration, my thoughts and feelings about my desires are. Maybe just maybe I could look at what my beliefs are about my life, about my desires and my experiences. Maybe I could look at this all quite differently.